Blurb What do you do when the only person you've ever truly wanted belongs to someone else? Oliver My entire life has been a lie, only existing as a sliver of my true self; shame, guilt, and loneliness eating away at me with the knowledge I can never be honest about what I want most in life. Until, by chance, I meet someone I can't resist, and I do something I never thought I would do. It's been ingrained in me since I was a child that who I am is not acceptable. That's why I'm dating a woman. That's why I tell myself I am content marrying a woman. But the gorgeous, outgoing boy behind the counter of the bar I end up at has me questioning everything I thought I had learned to live with. Hunter When I return home from college and discover that the man I slept with three months ago is the same man who is engaged to my mom, my world turns upside down. I haven't been able to get the sexy British man out of my head since our steamy encounter, and I never thought I would see him again, least of all in my childhood home. I'm furious, heartbroken, and determined to keep the older man at bay, until Oliver reveals some things about himself that have my heart softening towards him, and confesses that he hasn't been able to stop thinking about me either. This story is 1st Person duel POV. It contains a fifteen year age gap, forced proximity, cheating (not between mcs), kink, including praise, bondage, toys, edging, snowballing, a younger, needy, possessive top, an older submissive bottom who realizes he is a total pillow princess, and a seriously broken toy parrot. An HEA for the couple is promised. CW: One mc has very homophobic parents who say some not nice things. There is also heavy cheating in this book, not between mcs. There is one very brief MF scene, not in detail and one more mentioned but not on page.