Think of being unable to stop the pain, having to deal with night terrors day in and day out. Feeling weak, fearful, and sheer helplessness! Being Broken to the point of feeling death. Wanting to feel something, needing to end it all. Carla had so many emotions she didn't know where to focus them. Trying to explain to her doctor the feelings that she felt an explanation so deep, so bone chilling the doctor had no words! "Walking in my house to know my daughter was hanging from my stairs and I wasn't even there! Could I have stopped this? If I was in the shower would she have still tried? If it wasn't for James my baby would be gone I would have lost everything! I couldn't imagine losing her after losing Matty. All I could think is was it because of me I couldn't take the pain anymore I started to feel like I was back in that dirt pit struggling to breathe. I tried to take pills to feel nothing maybe if I stayed away Sandra would have a chance at putting back the pieces of her life. Things a mother and child should never have to go through. Sandra almost took her life after all of this and in that moment walking into my house to find my baby lying on the floor barely breathing!" .......Having your worst fears come to life with nothing in your power to stop it, unable to breath, move, or speak! We need to get back to the basics we need to fix this we need to live, love, and laugh again. Try to figure this out and Mend the relationship....